A Bigger Home

by Kenneth Fox

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Don't be afraid to turn up the volume! The recordings aren't very loud.

A Bigger Home was recorded entirely in the summer of 2011.

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released 30 August 2011
Music and Lyrics by Kenneth Fox
Recorded / Produced by Kenneth Fox

Drums on tracks 2, 7, 10, & 12 performed by Nihco Gallo.
Bass guitar on tracks 1, 2, 4, 5, 7, 10, 11, 12, & 13 performed by Zane McDaniel.

Album cover by Meaghan Cahill ft. Zane McDaniel

Thankyou so much to everyone who has helped make this and supplied me with any variety of help, including (but not restricted to) the following people listed in no particular order: Zane McDaniel, Meaghan Cahill, Nihco Gallo, the Couture family [for the drumset!], Cameron Boucher [for the amp!], Addie Curran, Uncle Doug, Abby Desharnais [for the drum machine!], and everyone who has helped me in any way!

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Kenneth Fox is a trombonist/songwriter living in Manchester, New Hampshire. He is currently a Junior in ... more highschool.

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Track Name: World's Edge
My friend, I've seen the world from the ledge
The castle from its tall and mighty keep
My girl careened and feel from World's Edge
A canyon that's untouched and ever deep

But I want to see if she could be
Holding onto me
The lights went out when she made her fall
From Earth's balcony

(Chorus)
As she's makin' her fall from Earth
As her little hurt heart begins grow
With her summergold hands clasped in mine
We'll find our own ways at our own times

The time has come to swallow up my fear
And step from here into the depths below
I'll fall but I know someone will be near
I'll take them by the hand and not let go

I'll never see the if the world I left
Is how it's supposed to be
I'll only feel the hand of someone else
Falling next to me

(Chorus)
As we're makin' our fall from earth below
As our little hurt hearts begin to grow
With her summergold hands clasped in mine
We'll find our own ways at our own times
Track Name: Meantime
There is a wall in this old room
It is impossible to move
It is impossible to break through. Late nights
Carved in the walls of this old tomb
It is impractical to prove
To try and show you how the grooves spell my name
They hold here with skin of stone
Heart of dark and wooden bone
Harbored by the spell of long blue late nights
But I have savored but the strength
To send a blade right through its length
And break through all the wall that's caused me my pain

But I need preparation for this confrontation
I'm too scared and unfamiliar
I need explanation in every situation
You'll fight yourself forlorn until well

(Chorus)
Well I-I-I-I-I. I've got to get outside.
I've got to get outside in the meantime
And I-I-I-I-I. I've got to let it go
I've got to let it go while there's still time
And you-oo-oo-oo-oo. You've got to let me through
You've got to let me through to the outside
And I-I-I-I-I. I cannot let it die
I cannot leave myself broken hearted

Here I can stay or I can leave
I can choose what I should believe
Or wander lost through all the unswept hallways
Make math of every single thought
Until the numbers catch in knots
And wish I hadn't started thinking that way
Here there's cracks in many door
Slivers running through the floors
Sunlight shines out through the empty spaces
Outside there's life and laughter too
Some things old and some things new
Wrinkled eyelids on familiar faces

But I need preparation for this confrontation
I'm too scared and unfamiliar
I need explanation in every situation
You'll fight yourself forlorn until well

(Chorus)
Track Name: This Town (Where They Begin)
Been livin' in this town for most of my life
Trapped in by circumstances that I cannot fight
This room is dusty and the walls are rotting through
And there's an urge inside my gut to reach
for something new
Cause down here people move their mouths
but words do not come out
Here their eyes move slowly and
their hearts beat fast and loud

Well all these friends I have made
I love you so but I gotta be
Gotta get out of this cage
Iron bars won't hold me

(Chorus)
I've got to go and find myself
And prove my worth to somewhere else instead
Put use to this beating heart
The thoughts that race around inside my head

Been livin' in this town so long who knows when I will go
The world's filled with many things that you
just cannot know
So I will wait for anytime the words are on my tongue
Goodbye to all the scenery, the streets and everyone
I have lived in your embrace for so many heavy years
It's weighed me down but strengthened me
Now I can face my fears
Then I'll walk through all the dusty streets where my
young life began
And say goodbye to every tree, woman, child, and man

Well all these friends I have made
I love you so but I gotta be
Gotta get out of this cage
Iron bars won't hold me

(Chorus)
I've got to go and find myself
And prove my worth to somewhere else instead
Put use to this beating heart
The thoughts that race around inside my head
I've got to go and leave this town
I know I would, I should, I shall, I can
Put use to this beating heart
The thoughts that race around inside my head
Track Name: Pillow and Penny Jar
If I ever feel lonely if I ever feel down
I just remember that the Earth is keeping my feet
on the ground
If it seems like words are meaningless and arbitrary sounds
I remember they mean much more to
the people I'm around
And even if I live in solitude for the rest of my life
At least I've heard the simple song that the crickets sing
at night
The sky has kept me company, the son has given light
So I could see how just a breeze could
lift my battered kite

Oh no, I did it
Went down and lit it
Fire blazin' under my toes
Why I, I knew it
But had to do it
Just to make my stubborn feet go

Da-doo-doo, doot-doo-doo, doot-doo-doo, doot-doo-doo.

If I ever feel lonely, if I ever feel sad
I just think of all the extraordinary vivid dreams I've had
And the stories they would make if I just
put them in a book
To remind myself 'bout how my own imagination looks
If I tore a tattered page out from where its
side is bound
And left for a breeze to come and sweep it off the ground
Would the paper show me where to go
with where its trail begins
Or would it simply flutter like a lost kite blowin' in the wind
Track Name: City Lights (Not Alone)
Lights on, cause we're headin' out
Old people and young people walk about
Doing everything but what is not allowed
Buried cities below us waiting to be found
Sittin' there with cheap shops and crowded trains
Starving musical prodigies that have no name
Hungry crowds that reach out for fancy clothes
It's a life in a language that I don't know

And there's too many buildings to count
There's houses in every amount
And a face every moment I turn
Sewn sad or somberly stern

(Chorus)
City lights loom over crowded streets
So many people that were born to compete
Living day by day in concrete homes
Lonely people who are not alone
Sitting or standing during working hours
Receive commanding from the greater powers
Living day by day in towers of stone
Lonely people who are not alone

Lights out, cause we're headin' back
These horrors could give me a heart attack
Don't wanna be a city boy anymore
Now that I know what all these things are for
Don't want to sit in a cheap shop or crowded train
Don't want to sing but be a man that has no name
I wanna be important to someone
I wanna be important to somewhere

And oh, these city lights. Shining their cold light on me.
Oh, it isn't right. Living as no-one shouldn't be so easy.

(Chorus)
Track Name: Isn't It Nice
Isn't it nice that we think of each other
Isn't it nice that there's things we don't know
Like what's going 'round in the head of another
But wouldn't agree that this feeling is home

(Chorus)
And if you have something to say
You want to give your thoughts away
Then you can talk to me.
And if there's something on your mind
If you feel you're in a bind
Then you can talk to me.

Isn't it nice that the world keeps turning
Spinning round and round like the thoughts in our heads
There is much more money that we could be earning
But I like it much better when I'm with you instead
And isn't it so nice how our small hearts are beating
Pumping blood to two eyes and fingers of ten
We also say hello with a casual greeting
And when we say goodbye I know I'll see you again

(Chorus)
Track Name: Just a Dollar
I'm broke, got no money now, but I'm free
I've got iron in my step tied to an old untethered dream
If I croak, and it's funny, laugh as you please
You may have silver in your coffers but that unknown
reigns supreme

Inside of its dark depths is just a boy who's lost his way
He hides beneath the surface, but in the end all he can say
is

(Chorus)
I'm old now, and it's cold out.
Just a dollar if you please, just a dollar's all I need.
And I'm bold now, stretch my hands out.
Just a dollar in the street, cause a dollar's all I need.

It may seem that this world has supplied me with life
But money does not grow on trees
and gold comes not from light
I may dream that these curled green notes
grow quite rife
But I believe my unbound dream
will always know what's right

I clasp to its echoes, like a boy holds a balloon
If that lost boy could grasp it, I'd see his grey eyes soon

'Choo see, we're both, so trapped, between, the wires
But I, have hope, unseen, to keep - me - higher

(Chorus)
Track Name: Flurds of Consciousness
I want to feel, to feel alive
But we're just flurds of consciousness,
we're just flurds of consciousness instead

I want it real, I want it right
But we're just flurds of consciousness,
we're flurds of consciousness

I spelled your name in colored light
But you just came and saw the mess
But you just came and saw the mess instead

Broken glass, you cut your eyes
And your sight became bottomless
And your sight became bottomless instead
Track Name: Radio Parts
And this whole time, thought I was fine, till I found
Things comin' down on me, oh
And these things of mine, they seem so inclined
To come down. All around me alone

And I'm feeling so hurt and I'm going so hard
Put the pieces apart but the engine apart
I'm walkin' by heel and toe, cause I gotta go
And you're feeling so smart with your radio parts
You're moving by wheels that roll cause you gotta go

So when I see you up there
I'm gonna have some dirt on my shoes
And if the old men don't care
I'm gonna work hard till I lose

I tired of being another gear, on some machine's
outer rear. Oh.
I get a role, I play it well. I buy the things
I'm s'posed to sell. Oh.

At home there's the sound of the radio working
Swallow the words of the TV conversing with
Blindfolded brains and glazed eyes taking notice
Advertisers and their subconscious poets
Well I've had enough, I won't just sit here
And take it all in, these facts filling my insides
right up to the brim
And changing me slowly but surely
I want to live purely
Without all the noise.
Track Name: What is Perfection?
Stare at my soul, tell what you see now
It's all just a void, useless with no form
Or purpose at all, useless like most people
Say I am

Well, is life always like this, cruel and so bias
Cause I don't look nicest, well I don't even know if
It's worth all the pain, I'd go through just to
Prove my point

Can I even come near to
Expression required to let you guys see through
The darkest of demons that seem to infest you
Do all of my feelings come down to this
And how can I be sure
You guys even hear me or know what I sing for
Sometimes I'm not even sure who I sing toward
All I've wanted to say is that

(Chorus)
All my feelings know, but they can't show
And they can't get out
And all you people hope, you'll one day know
What I'm singing about
And all my hopes, all my dreams, somehow got lost
With my self esteem
You'd better hold on tight, because tonight
I'm letting it all go

Now you can see me, but can you feel me
I get no release, questions that always seem to
Be on their knees, begging for answers and
Explanation

Well I go for answers, she's always tired of
Questions I ask her, always so short with the
Talk and run banter, where will I get the
Answers I seek

And heavens above me
I turn to the scriptures but answers don't come see
None of them are in the books that are from thee
Am I looking hard enough?
And what is perfection?
Clearly it's based off of more imperfection
Why do I waste time with questions
That seem to be of no use at all

(Chorus)

Oh, life has its turns, but I'm still happy I knew it
Questions will always go unanswered
But life won't go unanswered, here I am to show it
Searching for answers to questions that lead in
Many direction we follow
On
I hope someday, we give up the questions
That haunt us on

(Chorus)
Track Name: Move Slowly
Can you feel the pavement on your feet?
It pulls a crooked story from the soles of shoes
that have the nerve to speak

On the sidewalk that we call our own
In neighborhoods of failing cars
and houses which may never be called homes

Here the murmured words of moving cars
A distant droning melody
from a daunting stream of shifting headlight stars

This barricade of brightness holds us back
It stains our eyes with nimble lights
It stays our hearts which hurt to be intact

(Chorus)
And your mind is still a million miles away
But your eyes move slowly
Your feet can bring you to and from each day
But your eyes move slowly

Well we can do this of that I am sure
They'll put us into boxes
They will tear us limb from limb to make us pure

We can't let fear fall silent on our whole
And shake our knees and with will
To send ourselves unto some sacred goal

In ready preparation we will start
We'll sift through all the layers knowing
every little piece will play its part

And could we hear the call of memories past
We'd hurry from the present place
We'd throw away our silly dreams so fast

(Chorus)
Track Name: Vacation's Over!
What, what, what is this place
Don't want to leave, but I don't wanna stay
I've been trying to find an escape
From all these pressures that are coming my way
What, oh, what is this hole
Been trapped inside here all alone
No way out, not a ladder or rope
Not a ladder or rope
Call this a dungeon or tower
I've had to make an album in 24 hours
School starts tomorrow
You know what it's like there

I know it's obvious, I don't know what I'm doing
I can tell it's clear from the terrible lyrics I'm spewing
But I want you know that I'm really kinda glad
I get some time away from my mom and dad

(Chorus)
This is the last day of vacation
Made this in a day cause of procrastination
Just thought I'd letcha know
Just thought I'd letcha know
Gotta go back to school tomorrow
More pain and much more sorrow
It stinks and I really don't wanna go
It stinks and I really don't wanna go

The loss left me still
I had so much time to kill
But it died in my hands
Like Lenny when he holds a bunny
It was glorious for a time
It was awesome it was sublime
But nothing good can stay
Says some very important person

I feel like I've seen it all
And nothing's good enough
And I know everything cause I am awesome
Don't try and prove me wrong
Or I'll sing another song
You made me feel like an opossum.

It's pretty obvious I don't know what I'm doing
I can tell its clear from the terrible lyrics I'm spewing
But I want you to know I'm really not this bad
It's all related to the time that I had

(Chorus)
Track Name: Magazines
It's a cruel world, and the magazines
Tell me what to think. All the time
Something's wrong with all these photographs
People front to back, in a line
They don't speak of all the things they do
All the things they feel, they're afraid
With distractions: shiny big TV's
Waiting hopelessly to be made
With magic of fancy cameras
Closing out the world with the skin
And the tragic fall of artisty,
Rise of infamy, starts within

(Chorus)
Well if all you really wanna be
Isn't part of human alchemy
Then open up your mind
If all you've ever sought to see
Was your own possibilities
Then open up your mind

All the evils in this tarnished world
Become part of me in the grind
Taking headroom: filling useful space
In the crevices. Of my mind
I want things that I don't really need
Shiny big TV's, a bigger home
If I say I do not want these things,
just to be myself, am I alone?

(Chorus)

Friend, this is the end, the world's turning over
In a ray of inspiration angry from the growing pain
So real, yet fake.
Imagination churning, making storylines to emphasize
The pain inside my mind.
These stories make my skin so very cold
Take my heat as I grow old
Suck the meaning from my life and leave me here
To ramble on and on in quarter notes
Till I end the song.

(Chorus)
Track Name: So We Stay
And I see we're trapped inside this mess
But there's something here I should confess
I've been waiting to get out so long
That the waiting here's become my home
And though we're fallin' from the edge of the world
As a pair a lonely boy and girl
We will find a way to hate where we are
When heaven knows we've come so far

For every moment there's something to be said
You can sit and wait and try and get your fill instead
And the whole game is rigged, but everybody knows
So you'll play until you're done
cause that's the way it goes

(Chorus)
So way stay, in this run of the mill - run of the mill - place
At this runnin' uphill - runnin' uphill - pace
In this worryin' till - cannot sit still - race
In this run of the mill - run of the mill - place

So we'll move by foot along our track
Just a dollar'd get us there and back
And though at best it's all just selfish haste
I know that this time didn't go to waste
Though I'm a sailor on a sinking boat
I'll just keep singin' each and every note
Till my voice is rasp and throat is dry
And all I can see is sea and sky

Well for every echo, there's someone screaming out
There's too much going on, I don't know what it's about
And this whole game is rigged, but everybody knows so
My sailor's ship has sunk, but that's the way it goes

And if I fall I'll put my feet back on the ground
Stand up tall and hope that I will found
And though I'm scared I'll keep myself in the race
So someday I'll be able to make my escape

(Chorus)